Drama that is my life. Well to those who actually do read my journal entries and visit this deviantart page I am going to tell you my experiences within the past 2 months. The reason why I have not been adding more deviations on a regular basis is because I have spent the past 2 months in admitted to the hospital. Since the beginning of November I have sudden black outs that would cause me to pass out for as long as 30sec to 1 hour. I have seen a total of 12 different doctors from neurologist to cardiologist. I have been admitted to 4 different hospitals and have rode in an ambulance 3 times with all 3 times unconscious. I'm guessing God decided to give me an early christmas present because these blackouts (9 in total) suddenly stopped. With no explanation or diagnosis they went away. I was happy and relieved that I can go back to regular life without having to worry about my health. Christmas holidays past and started a new semester in school, new girlfriend, new beginning. All of that was again turn upside down without warning. On January 19, 2004 I went missing from 1:00pm - 12:30am. I have no recollection of what happend and what took place between those times. All I remember is leaving my home to go to school and then walking up in a chair in the royal york hotel not knowing who I was, where I was, how I got there, and what I'm supposed to do. To make a long story short I was found by nathan phillips square passed out by the skating rink and brought to the hospital. I still don't know what happend to me that day, blood and urine tests found nothing in my system. MRI's CT scans came back negative and I was discharged to go home. Regaining my memory was the hardest through the whole situation because it hurt to see the faces of the people who cared about me when I told them I didn't remember who they were. I have regained my memory and trying to continue with life normally. I am terrified of hospitals because I have spent far too much time in them. Throughout all of this I refuse to let it get the best of me and turn me bitter. I live one day at a time and enjoy whatever time on this earth hoping that there't something better then this after I leave this place.